I am diving back into work this week with 3, 12 hour shifts that seemed to turn into 16 hour shifts. I am feeling this is not what brings me joy. I do enjoy my job, but it is not fulfilling my soul. I think, “when will I be done here and allow myself to move on to my true calling, my passion, my purpose.” I feel like I’ve discovered my purpose so much more lately as I emerce myself in the MKE program. I also feel there is still something holding me back from moving forward and letting go of the past completely. There is security in what is known, trusted, and a steady paycheck. There is so much unknown when following the path to Bliss. Will there be enough? Will I be able to provide for my family? Will I be enough? As a ponder these thoughts I lay my head on a pillow, eyes so heavy I can barely see the words on the paper. Just wanted to get some thoughts out that were rambling through my head, and now off to bed.
Love and light, Marda