All that really matters has already been, and continues to be, accomplished. You see my biggest reason for doing anything is my children. I choose to be a better person so that I may be a better mother and a better example for them. I want to make an impact on this world, in a really big way. The drive to do more, be more, help more, love more, give more fills my heart and my mind. I want to leave a legacy, a lasting ripple that increases the light and love on our planet. The people I most want to impact are the beautiful little souls that I helped to bring into this world and who count on me to guide and teach them. I know that the best lessons they will ever learn are by watching me. From the time our children are very young everything they do is from watching, listening and learning every move we make. We essentially don’t teach them how to walk or talk, they learn that on their own from mimicking us. They walk, talk and even think in the ways that we modeled for them. Just think of all the different accents that people have from different parts of the same city! We are role models for our children whether we choose to be or are conscious of it. I do not take this responsibility lightly. Contrarily I think it is about overwhelming at times. Those times when I’ve lost my temper, spoke in an unkind tone, belittled, teased, laughed when I shouldn’t have… there are so many tiny moments, moments I hope are inconsequential to their psyche. I pray that those moments are the ones they never remember, the ones that didn’t imprint on their souls and create a lasting stain on there subconscious mind. I pray those moments don’t direct how they feel about life, fairness, self worth and love.
This week I have gloriously experienced a moment I pray lasts for their lifetimes! I have been distracted from all of the aspects of this MKE course, I fell into some old habits of procrastination, but I have faithfully kept up on my reading. I do love to read and that has been the easiest part of this course for me. Lesson 9 was a really great read and I went back to it several times during week 10. I took out some note cards and sat at the dining table with my kiddos while they were doing homework and began to write out 5 cards with “I am whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious and happy.” As I was writing I was saying it aloud. As children do, they became interested in what I was doing, and asked if they could write one too. So each of my kids wrote out their own card, or two, with “I am whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious and happy.” We had a wonderful discussion on why we were writing the cards and how we should read them when we wake up and before bed each night. My 7 and 8 year old had a lot of questions about what harmonious meant. I gave them a great answer, although not quite the dictionary version, of how it meant that we should always be acting in a way that makes us all happy. It means we are kind, cooperative, share, and work together. I felt this meaning of the word would most impact them as these are things they struggle with being young and very close in age. They are very concerned with fairness, who is doing what, and how much of anything they may have gotten more or less of. The arguments are not daily, they occur hourly! Harmony is not a word I would use to describe our current household dynamic. I know that this is a “phase” of my children’s lives that they will transition out of. I pray that I can help them smoothly transition quickly!!!
All that really matters is being accomplished! I am so grateful for the impact this MKE course is making on my life so that I can make a greater impact, especially on my children’s lives. I recommit to doing the work each day. Just like anything worthwhile, it takes daily commitment. So I will begin and end each day with a promise to myself that I will do my best, do what I say I am going to do, show up and follow through.
I can be what I will to be.
I always keep my promises.
Love and light, Marda