Wow, week 4, part 4 of the Master Key is a game changer. As I read and re-read the words I digest a little more each time and start to take in this “new” reality. I have become an observer in my own life. Watching my actions and interactions, the “I” that is who I am remains a neutral 3rd party to this life that continues to unfold. A life based on the old habits, routines, and reactions. It has been very interesting to say the least.
I see myself arguing with children to do what I ask of them. I get angry with the dog because he demands attention in an over affectionate way that irritates. I see myself frustrated with my husband for his behavior that I don’t perceive as “right.” I see my behavior of distraction, avoidance and procrastination. I am coming to realize that there is more chaos and disharmony than I like.
I am consciously making attempts to create change, create harmony, and greater understanding. I realize that this is not going to be an “easy” task. I have operated in this way for a long time. It was never my intention. I have always imagined a happy, harmonious family and life. I’m not that far off, it’s not that bad, but it’s not as good as it could be. I think I just got caught up in life, too busy, too distracted, and for sure not consciously creating what I truly desire. Reading those words I can see I’m minimizing, because then I don’t have to work that hard. The truth is I am wholly dissatisfied with my prevailing emotional state. I know there is greatness in me and I will not be satisfied until I completely align with that knowledge.
The great news is that I now possess the tools that “guide me…to shores which only yesturday seemed but a dream.” I am creating my life anew, consciously and purposefully; “into the sunlight of wealth, position and happiness far beyond my most extravagant dreams!”
To create the life I truly desire I know it will take great effort. The tasks are not hard, they are simple really, but not easy. Permanent lasting change is usually not easy, but so worth it. My life and the life of my family is worth it, so I know I must commit to 100% or nothing. Going half in, 80% effort, or 9/10 of the way won’t get me there. My old “bad habits must be destroyed and new furrows prepared for good seed.”
I am excited about what the future holds. Not just for myself but for the lives of everyone traveling along the MKE journey. Many blessings to all of you, and may you move through the old with ease and grace as we shift together into the “new” reality of the world within.
I can be what I will to be. I always keep my promises. – Marda Harper