I can feel energy shifting and I m really excited about what will come over these next weeks. I was asking for this, praying for a way to get past my resistance. I feel the potential for greatness within me, and I also feel resistance. I have begun a new journey in network marketing and I am in love with the industry, the people, our products and the opportunity to financial change my future and the future of friends and family. I have been doing a LOT of self-development and not able to get past my own self! I have realized that my inner thoughts, self talk and emotions are my biggest obstacle. Yet I can’t seem to figure out how to get past it. I know there is a way to overcome every fear, every reservation and change the inner dialogue to become who I already am, but I have no idea how to make that happen.
I had made an agreement with my husband that if I hadn’t created a enough momentum in my network marketing business that I would be done pouring time and energy into it, time away from family, and be content with my nursing career. My two-year anniversary with my company is coming up March 2019. I can feel this “deadline” looming so I have been feeling more fear, fear of failure, fear of lost potential. The thing is I am not content with my nursing career. I know that I am meant to do something more. What I do as a nurse is amazing, and I am really good at it. I am grateful that I am a nurse and grateful for the experiences I have had. Still, there is something more.
I found MKE on Facebook. I watched the first video on Friday Oct 14th, and I almost dismissed it. I followed through and watched the other two videos that same day. I wanted to know more. I caught the informational webinar that Sunday and I told myself I didn’t have time for a program like this. However, as I thought on it more and more, couldn’t get it out of my mind really, I knew I was looking for something. I remembered the agreement I had with my husband and thought maybe, just maybe, this could unlock my potential. I thought about the time commitment and realized that “coincidently”‘ my two-year anniversary of my company fell in the same month that this program completed. I KNEW this is what I had been praying for and that I had to do it.
I thought, my husband isn’t going to be happy about me taking on one more thing. Something that takes more time from the family. I completed the application anyhow and knew I could always turn the scholarship down, if I even got in. I prepared my self for what I felt like was going to be an uncomfortable conversation followed by disapproval. Surprisingly my husband was open and quickly said, “do what you feel you need to do.” I found myself excited and ready to begin. Now I find myself resisting the process a bit, but I am pushing through.
I know that this is the catalyst to getting where I want to be in life. I am committed to the work at hand and will complete each task with joy so that I can live in my purpose and follow my bliss!